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📔 10:51 feel resentful twds Anya becoming clingy and distracting me on purpose when I sit at laptop and start working. Like being jealous to laptop.

00:01 📔 the problem in our relationship is this exact dynamic, which is Anyas reaction to my withdrawal.

📔 ❤️ 14:35 Got overwhelmed and took a nap. feel same, maybe a bit better.

📔 ❤️ 15:06 rn feel better. only bit empty because hungry. took second [[mph oral]] as well.

📔 12:16 better after [[talking with Anya]], taking [[mph sublingual]] and making coffee

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19:58 📔 💭 maybe I'm just not that interested in Anya?

📔 ✍🏻 17:22 ate pancakes, watched tv. smh feel sad, down.

22:46 📔 the thing with Anya guilttripping me is: I didn't do something wrong, so I won't feel guilty or scared or bad. It's her expectations, old wounds, traumas etc. - I won't take it on me.

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