Hungry hearth will eat lies.
11:27 📅 Anya freaked out badly because I didn't buy flowers in the early morning. woke up late and prepared mentally to go buy something
She threw coke glass against the wall and took keys so that I won't leave till we talk it over.
Admittedly, I fucked up. But it's nowhere near to what she did.
Decided to break up for a few months, maybe date others and see where it goes.
12:39 ❤️ have so high anxiety and chest pain. feel so bad
I don’t know who is right and who is wrong but I feel resentment. Braindumping
Like yes, I didn’t buy the gift in the early morning, but why do you have to freak the fuck out like I killed someone.
And what I hate most of all - her lack of understanding. She says that she hears me, but I never once felt like she really understood me. One always could come from the place of “why?” instead of starting right off with fighting and drama. So I keep repeating same things over and over without feeling acknowledged. She just says nothing and after a while you hear that she’d been patiently waiting for me to change.
📅 [Anya] Said so many things between the lines of her not being able to rely on me as on a man, me not being responsible, her feeling like a caregiver, friend etc. Basically same shit that Nika said back then about me not being manly enough, just sugarcoated.
Like I made her this crazy, hysterical person.