21:19 📅 ➕ Anya brought pizza and wine, demanded that I drop everything I do and go eat. (asked for 5 minutes) After that took everything away and went on with doing her shit. Is it new norm? Now I drank a glass of wine and feel drunk. WTF?! I'm so sick and tired of this shit. Feel like it's enough, really..
1:15 📅 night before had this weird nightmare: we went on vocation together with Anya and she cheated on me with some arabic man. Before she was just saying how she couldn't stop smiling when around him and how attracted she felt to him. Then by accident gave in to my father how they kissed, how she did him a blow job and how he fucked her anally. I felt so hurt. I was punching wall and screaming how could this happen again. And before I thought that it's such a pity, that I'm losing her, that some other man seduced her just bc she was lonely bc I didn't pay enough attention to her when I could. I felt so guilty, like it was all my fault.
16:10 📅 came to DO. Really - completely different experience. feel much better, more motivated around people.
19:25 ✍🏻 📍 📅 Weird. Anya freaked out after I went out walking for two hours. Demanded to defend myself and to prove where I’ve been. Called me multiple times when I hung up because I was at the counter. Want to know where I was on a minute by minute basis. It’s creepy. Such a violation of boundaries. Especially after forcing me to give her my IG account login infos. What about trust? conflicts