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👀 📍 after run feel more in control, calmer

{{TODO}} 💡 🔬 📍 ⭐️ When feeling urge to do something "quickly" - try to prioritize training muscle of self-control and stop doing it just for the sake of it. toImplement

-> 📍 You need to regularly gain and maintain some perspective: to be more content, happier, calmer. And to motivate yourself to not waste your life.

-> 📍 TM in roam doesn't work! For TM system to work for you - you need to always see all upcoming tasks and be constantly reminded of them.

18:03 ✍🏻 👀 -> 📍 Anya went out and I can instantly focus. It's impossible to focus around her at all. On anything! Any productive work can't be done!

➕ ❓ ✍🏻 -> 📍remembered and noticed once again that most of the productive or at least focused (hyperfocused) work happens at night

-> 💫 📍 You fall every time you avoid & thus increase anxiety. Everything changes once you stop avoiding.

-> 📍 realized, that what you’re feeling it’s completely appropriate and normal considering circumstances that you are in. Obvious! No wonder you feel terror, fear of future, uncertainty, guilt, shame. You are in huge debts, should’ve graduated years ago, barely have any professional skills, wasted many years and opportunities, sitting home for months on end, have zero friends, addicted, on AD’s. Potential problems with law (AOK), uncertainty about visa. Like duh! Tons of problems and any second you can get hit so bad, that will just knock you out. So many things that are barely under control. So many potentially serious threats. Fazit: you are on the rock bottom, barely hanging on (broke and burned out) and there are many dragons that grew big enough that they could potentially take you out any second, so your body is prepared for anything each second.

-> ⭐️ 📍 after tuning down brightness on the phone screen – I finally feel like going to sleep, after four hours of trying and waiting.

💫 📍 🔬 quite often I can predict burnout evening before: I just feel exhausted, afraid of things I get to do tomorrow. I already feel like I can’t imagine me being productive tomorrow.

22:15 -> ⭐️ 💫 📍 fucked up whole day. Only two moments when I was on fire and productive - wenn I drank coffee.

-> 👀 📍 Endel in BG working like a charm

📍 But last time when I decided to get some more sleep in situation like that - it only made everything worse.

💭 📍 you want to remove as many distractions as possible

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18:33 -> ❤️ 💫 ⭐️ 📍 When overwhelmed - learned from past experiences that the best thing you can do is to minimize input and slow down.

-> 💫 📍 social pressure and lack of results are two main triggers for bad feelings

-> 📍 try and get most hard work done in the morning, evening before routines.

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-> 📍 You know you are doing the right thing - when your life gets better.

💫 📍 you must accept your nature: you only happy when highly stimulated! (Or its the same with everyone else?!)

-> 📍 This shows the power of student mindset, once again: read about roam vs Notion and learned that many people waste huge amounts of time in Roam and get nowhere. And that the chaos I experience is, in part, due to roams lack of structure. And that notion is build around structure.

📍 ✍🏻 for the first time in a long time I fell into hyperfocus and flow thanks to new Ultraworking format

📍 This is important: structure is there to help you do work, not become the work itself. If you fall into hyperfocus and forget doing certain meta-work tasks that's okay. Not just that: celebrate it like a MOFO, because it means the structure you built _worked_. roamcult

17:53 -> ❤️ 📍 after Braindumping understood: avoiding, because feel paralyzed and overwhelmed, triggered by too many things happening at the same time.

{{TODO}} 📍 Need to finish self auth suite ASAP

19:25 ✍🏻 📍 📅 Weird. Anya freaked out after I went out walking for two hours. Demanded to defend myself and to prove where I’ve been. Called me multiple times when I hung up because I was at the counter. Want to know where I was on a minute by minute basis. It’s creepy. Such a violation of boundaries. Especially after forcing me to give her my IG account login infos. What about trust? conflicts

-> 📍 every time you web hoarding - remember that the pages with lists won't go anywhere and rather than go through them and save links - just same the source. Because if it will get updated - you will be tempted to go through it again...

-> 📍 Change your environment and you’ll change your life

📍 health/energy and time are fundamental finite resources

👀 ✍🏻 📍 The amount of work I’ve done and the depth of focus I’ve experienced in just one hour at co-working space is unbelievable.