January 8th, 2021

careful when going online without a plan of action. try as much as possible to have a next steps plan, rough idea of what you are trying to achieve.

productivity steadily declines with growing mph-tolerance. guess I need a break.

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{{TODO}} nice-to Bucket List some kind of smart synonyms/ word forms framework, that puts multiple variations of same word together. embed as custom script in roam

{{TODO}} Bucket List custom keyboard / PWA wrapper around roam for quick work with markdown

{{TODO}} Bucket List when and what to hyperlink/connect in roam

Guess mph losing it’s effect day after day. One day of tolerance break is enough for about 3 days, after that effect declines. Feel more distractible, less motivation, less drive. Ytd was a complete waste. Today much better, but still quite scattered, slow.

Anya is watching TV all the time. Somehow her lack of drive scares me. She is sleeping in, has 9 hrs of sleep daily. Is constantly bored, sad, worried. Completely absorbed in self pity, hates herself but doesn’t want to do anything to change it. Constantly finds excuses. chasing distractions in any form: TV, SM, day-dreaming, codependency. That’s why she is constantly needy, wants more attention, to spend more time together. afraid of effect it-unknowingly-has on me.

Especially people who are badly socialized - they’ll just keep encroaching on you and encroaching on you unless you put up a wall.

calendar and Routinist seem to work fine, together with checklist in Roam.