avoid

sadness guilt avoid emptiness resentment hopelessness

plus tries to escape, to avoid facing the truth that her life has no meaning and that makes her depressed and empty

18:48 See that I’m avoiding, that makes me irritated.

[lack of results] urge to control everything; leading to overwhelm -> avoidance; plus triggers shame, guilt

-> 💫 📍 You fall every time you avoid & thus increase anxiety. Everything changes once you stop avoiding.

Plus, maybe, avoided calling Ausländerbehörde (discomfort triggered urge to being chasing distractions)

Get rid of energy sucking backburners, that trigger avoidance, overwhelm, self-hate, guilt etc.

18:22 ❤️ feel urge to avoid studying, literally like preparing to jump through a mental barrier

-> 📍 It is always easier to avoid starting in a first place, when you feel prone to avoiding

Feel overwhelm, avoid, anger.

anxiety, avoid, distractibility, brain-fog, IBS seem to always come hand-by-hand/together 💭

namely to reduce anxiety, break through mental barriers, stop avoiding

feel overwhelm, avoid.

social pressure (shame, guilt, fear of being rejected/criticized) - [trigger]

17:53 -> ❤️ 📍 after Braindumping understood: avoiding, because feel paralyzed and overwhelmed, triggered by too many things happening at the same time.

❤️ Everything seems so chaotic, afraid, overwhelmed -> avoiding

then it triggered anxiety and avoidance.