-> π« the only time I'm productive and focused is when I put on motivational talks in BG and turn on ANC.
-> π realized, that what youβre feeling itβs completely appropriate and normal considering circumstances that you are in. Obvious! No wonder you feel terror, fear of future, uncertainty, guilt, shame. You are in huge debts, shouldβve graduated years ago, barely have any professional skills, wasted many years and opportunities, sitting home for months on end, have zero friends, addicted, on ADβs. Potential problems with law (AOK), uncertainty about visa. Like duh! Tons of problems and any second you can get hit so bad, that will just knock you out. So many things that are barely under control. So many potentially serious threats. Fazit: you are on the rock bottom, barely hanging on (broke and burned out) and there are many dragons that grew big enough that they could potentially take you out any second, so your body is prepared for anything each second.
-> Open loops are really draining. When you start something and finish it in one chuck - it's much easier on you psychologically.
-> tl;dr βοΈ sense of competence, accomplishment and control -> keys to feeling fulfilled, calm and happy
-> You need to trust your system. So if you put in todos - put them all there at once.
-> caffeine is really a game changer: feel focused, energized, pumped up now. felt lethargic, irritated, sad, discouraged before. important
-> learned a value of structure, visualization, big picture. TGI feels much more approachable after initial setup in MN:
-> motivation really puts me together. makes angry, more focused, serious. brings sense of urgency.
-> the only way to stay with her and please her - give everything up and give all your attention to her. but then she will think you are a loser and will leave you.
18:33 -> β€οΈ π« βοΈ π When overwhelmed - learned from past experiences that the best thing you can do is to minimize input and slow down.
-> realized that to become [organized] you need to have a place for everything (know where everything goes). I.e. have clear structure and methodologies in place.
-> ΠΏΠΎΠ½ΡΠ» ΡΡΠΎ ΠΏΠΎΡΠ»Π΅Π΄Π½ΠΈΠ΅ Π΄Π½ΠΈ easily distracted bc of increased avoidance urge (increased anxiety). Bc want to run away from uni, exams - that seems to be the main thing.
-> how-to-learn It's always better to start with general structure (in a *breadth-first search* kinda way). To get a big picture view first. And go one level deeper from there.
-> π« π social pressure and lack of results are two main triggers for bad feelings
-> seems like the only way to work is to make something more interesting than procrastinating.
-> with increased awareness and by being present you can slow down time at least itβs relative experience by accomplishing more (and reducing time wasting) through:
-> If you change something in your system and it doesn't feel right - go back to what's been working last.
-> better tools/workflow = faster speed of knowledge processing/learning = more results
-> visualizing next day before sleep can help to reduce friction when starting and lower distractibility.
00:59 βπ» somehow everything is getting better after Anya came back, guess -> fixed sleep schedule and nutrition changed everything.
-> Need to keep my mind engaged in order to avoid it wandering off to bad places and to reduce anxiety.
π‘ π« -> realized that noting technique and STOP rule I learned when I was a kid are the same thing.
17:53 -> β€οΈ π after Braindumping understood: avoiding, because feel paralyzed and overwhelmed, triggered by too many things happening at the same time.