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January 17th, 2021

{{TODO}} 🔬 maybe I feel consistently worse after increasing zoloft, and it’s the cause of it?

{{ARCHIVED}} 👀 watching motivational videos instead of just listening seems to pump me up even more 💭

-> seems like the only way to work is to make something more interesting than procrastinating.

❤️ Somehow feel cool after setting up roam and watching tutorials

guess it's bc I'm beginning to feel like a pro

👀 at night it's clearly much easier to focus and think. like when the light goes off - every distraction disappears

{{TODO}} Learn more about ADHDs executive functions aspect ggl

{{TODO}} summarize different aspects of ADHD

overwhelm, avoidance (=procrastination)

motivational aspect

hard to start, stay at task, finish

overwhelm, avoidance (=procrastination)

disorganized (chaos, clutter, piles)

forgetfulness

ggl tools visual planners, visual timers, visual learning

Somehow I feel sad, discouraged. Atmosphere around Anya is kind of depressing, or it's me. Hard to focus on TGI preps. Everything seems to make so little sense. And just sadness.

Pretty sure it's just combination of broken sleep schedule, lack of sleep, awa consequences of dropping routines.

Plus, skipped self care routine for two days in a row

🔬 being/feeling dirty and unattractive always triggered me, made me feel like a loser

discouraged me, made me feel like my life has no future and like there is little hope. made me hate myself, being disgusted

guess lot's of it comes from me having bad acne in my teenage years

01:48 (January 18th, 2021) 👀 after shower feel completely different, "fixed".

-> I was right in saying

🔬 being/feeling dirty and unattractive always triggered me, made me feel like a loser

Good day, glad to have midday and self care routine done. plus did study for real, even if only 2x25 min in total. accomplishments

additionally, although it’s 3am, I’m still not staying up whole night. it’s kind still progress in right direction - recovering my sleep schedule, which is so crucial!

🔬 decided to reduce zoloft

took 75mg today

scared of PE worsening as a result

everything went sideways when we stopped setting alarms for the morning. sleep schedule 👀

-> studying on paper works.

working online - any chance to chase distractions would be too hard to resist.

the barrier between distractions and study material seems to make all the difference.

-> visual timers help immensely in reducing time anxiety

Routinery app is just a gem, everything I ever wanted.


Why @RoamResearch is the MOST powerful tool to think & mgmt & output? It's NOT structure-less, it is just NOT enforcing outdated structure (notebook, tags, text as blob). AND it let's you extend it. I wrote almost 10k lines & 300k character Roam code. Viktor Tabori on Twitter

ryans01 (u/ryans01) - Reddit - no zero days guy

But I have one question; how do you pick yourself back up when your mind has convinced you to be lazy today, or for the next couple days? That's a problem I run in to a lot, where my mind will just convince me that my couch is more comfortable, or I can start that project tomorrow, or the gym isn't THAT important today, etc. How do you move past that?

ryans01 It's all about yes or no. Choose yes. Because you want to and because you can.

Couch is comfortable? You're saying no to your dreams. Been on the couch for an hour already? Forgive yourself and say yes. You'll get it over time. :)

There's 80k people over in the non zero days subreddit - amazing how much a single step in the right direction can snowball

You're not a loser. You just dealt with some shit for a ridiculously long time. Get over it, forgive yourself for all the time you wasted, and go start loving.

Die Bedeutung der Frage ergibt sich daraus, dass viele praktisch wichtige Probleme von dem oben beschriebenen Typ sind, also dass die Korrektheit einer Lösung leicht überprüfbar ist, es aber vermutlich schwierig ist, eine korrekte Lösung zu berechnen.

{{TODO}} try to build your own Roam plugins, check source code of others Coding

A great way to use roam is not to obsess over creating a perfect system, but just gradually explore and convert repeating patterns into templates and iterate on what works and remove what causes friction. Start with [[]] -> (()) -> query -> templates -> smart templates.

No Zero Days

Gratitude and Favors (3 You's)

Forgiveness (Past Self)

Books and Exercising

You become what you think about and what you do every day

My Ultimate ADHD/Autism "Become a Functional Person" Productivity Cheatsheet : productivity - link article summary

Metadata/Tags:: productivity, ADHD tactics

Can't literally tell what I'm feeling -> Braindumping

Helps to tell how and why you feel the way you do

Unfiltered, badly, everything that comes to mind, with no structure, like on a scrap of paper you can through out

Brain is full of bees -> Mindmapping

{{TODO}} try MiMind app

Helps to

alleviate the feeling of chaotic-stress or "too much going on"

{{TODO}} WTF to do next? -> Section tasks as "Do Soon, Do Eventually, Would be Neat"

Outlined in a bullet point fashion:

have a masterlist for everything (tasks, goals, links, projects etc.)

series of tasks into a linear step-by-step

{{TODO}} Kanban with three sections?

Do Soon = today, this week, ought to do next

Do Eventually = aren't time sensitive/ on hold

Would be Neat = everything else (neither urgent nor life-changingly important)

Keep losing track of all this important shit -> Externalise knowledge/information-needs (onto one Gsheet?) with sectioned tabs

Your own "Masterbook of Important Shit"

will help to free up lots of valuable-and-lacking mental RAM-space

Having ADHD = We have to constantly externalize what we "know" into "I know where to find it."

Motto: "I know I'm not going to remember this, but I also know where to find it"

Cant start -> Visual Timers (shrinking pie-charts, hourglasses ) removes time-anxiety

{{TODO}} try TimeTimer app

Compensate for our inability to have a sense of time

We have either

Now - Not Now (when)

Forever - Nothing (how long)

We procrastinate bc we feel that something will take forever to do

Being able to visually see time disappearing, really helps to motivate yourself to pursue a task and to make said task appear a lot less all-consuming. We freeze when we can't see the end to a task/project, a visual timer gives us freedom and clarity of mind when we're like this. Numbers counting down is still too 'abstract' for a lot of us, but seeing something shrink down over time gives a much more concrete sense of time.

Mid-task wandering off -> Junebugging

Assign yourself an anchor point

Having ADHD involves accepting that you'll have SOME 'wandering off', but we can guide our hurricane-of-chaotic-attention to specific areas/topics versus punishing ourselves for being unable to focus on One Thing.

{{TODO}} next level: take a day to list bunch of 'cluster tasks' you can do together and default to when junebugging

You can also apply this to digital programs/folders/emails, though I recommend an external post-it note reminder of what you're presently junebugging, for lack of physical anchor

Hate but need alarms? -> Use cluster alarms/notification apps that are pleasant to use

{{TODO}} try TimeTune App

While getting visual notifications (at first) seems like an obvious ADHD solution, we risk getting "Notification Overload" where we just start dismissing notifications without even reading or noticing them.

Find the planner that works for YOU specifically

Physical agenda books

There's planners out there that split up days into hourly sections, and include monthly journal-like check-ins where you can look back and assess what worked, what didn't work, and if you're pursuing things that are aligning to your own personal goals/desires along with reminders to appreciate the people around you.

{{TODO}} try PassionPlanner (ggl Agenda planners)

⭐️ It has to feel good for us to use it.

You have to turn your planner into something you have fun using, and want to use.

{{TODO}} find pens you want to use

Feeling Stuck in Cycles? -> Be inspired by your future ideal self

{{TODO}} "Unfuck Yourself" book Bucket List to/read

we are often trapped by our past habits and past lifestyles, traumas, habit patterns, etc.

"What we spend mental energy on is what we become"

Pull from future

Think about who you want to become, where you want to be.

Think about the possible paths you would need to take to get there.

The danger of introspection is we can get caught-up in how we were that we forget to look to who we could become.

It gets a lot easier to pursue new habits, new efforts, when we can actually identify if we're on "the right track" or not.

Can't Read? -> Abuse audiobook platforms like you're robbing a library

You can use audiobooks as background noise to 'pad' unpleasant tasks like chores, dishes, and feed yourself media while doing something unpleasant or time-consuming.

January 17th, 2021