today I’m grateful
To parents for standing by me, always.
To myself for courage to keep trying and believing.
To JBP for wisdom about evil.
To Anya for love and care.
To Roma for being an example for passion.
To Tina for helping me when I first moved to ka.
To Sasha for being there when I was lonely.
proud that started routine but stopped before going for a run, couldn’t force myself, waited to feel like it
took a nap and woke up feeling much better, ready to go for a run
Ytd
-> don’t eat heavy right before sleep
meditation breakthrough: calm focus and heightened awareness in the moment now.
maybe it's just an effect of MPH kicking in, certainly felt like it. took it exactly 15-20 min beforehand
in general, feel more calm, energized. IBS much better
a little bit guilt due falling behind schedule.
hard to start workday
starting new routine/activity block is the hardest. taking MPH to power up helps. plus meditation makes it easier. guess it's due to anxiety.
-> Need to keep my mind engaged in order to avoid it wandering off to bad places and to reduce anxiety.
to lie (down) english srs verb-conjugation
lay - lain (verb-conjugation/continuous: lying)
18:15 low energy but still feel like reading. apart from watching some TV (not so much) don't want to do anything after full lunch and with MPH wearing off
19:30 drank protein shake with soja milk
19:51 PayPal is unlocked, but card verification code needed. God knows when it comes...
Not much left for now, only to try at supermarket tomorrow[*]({{TODO}} Try cash withdrawal at supermarkets)
So now’d be the best time to stop and switch attention to something else. It’s something new and unusual to prevent time wasting. Looks like someone is gaining more awareness. Love the idea of increased self-control.
-> with increased awareness and by being present you can slow down time at least it’s relative experience by accomplishing more (and reducing time wasting) through:
focused work (reducing distractions)
increased self-control (being able to switch attention, to stop hyperfocusing on unimportant stuff)
being able to prioritize and see big-picture