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➕ feels like a new bible - so relatable and insightful. Might be life changing!

21:19 📅 ➕ Anya brought pizza and wine, demanded that I drop everything I do and go eat. (asked for 5 minutes) After that took everything away and went on with doing her shit. Is it new norm? Now I drank a glass of wine and feel drunk. WTF?! I'm so sick and tired of this shit. Feel like it's enough, really..

21:29 ➕ decided to try and take 10 mg sublingual and see if it will break my productive flow

➕ ❓ ✍🏻 -> 📍remembered and noticed once again that most of the productive or at least focused (hyperfocused) work happens at night

❓ ➕ or maybe it's bc of food, because it's evening? because oral is out and only sublingual left

➕ 💡 Я думаю что если ты начнёшь делать вечернюю рутину то тебе будет проще идти спать.

⭐️ ➕

17:21 👀 ➕ I feel like I found a way out of depression (through necessity): it’s to emerge yourself into things / projects that excite you - they will give you an energy and make you alive once again. getting out of it

➕ Если начинать с нуля то:

✍🏻 ➕ ordered yesterday, but people say they’re a cheap choice

✍🏻 ➕ 👀 tech/apps/noteplan seems to be very good at bringing structure and calm

➕ Best thing I can think of to do now is meditation. And cleaning up schledule so it feels more approachable.

👀 ➕ Endel with APP feel like bringing you to another space and dimension.

✍🏻 ➕ 👀 Listening to classical music in BG might be a good choice.

💫 ➕ I guess her mother has some influence on her. and considering her mom clearly being at least a bit psychotic - there must be something shady going on.

{{query: {and: ➕ {not: ex-B]}}}}

➕ = for things to return back to

➕ will see how long they will last

19:25 👀 ⭐️ ➕ saw multiple MPH pills once again in a poo.

22:30 👀 ➕ have just crazy focus: feel amazing. feel my body vibrating, in the moment. dk what happened. flow state?

{{query: {and: ➕ {not: ex-B]}}}}

➕ ✍🏻 decided to try to use NotePlan, will try and see how it goes

13:11 ➕ I think I need to get outside asap.

💫 ➕ think you got worse once again after [[getting back together with Anya]] and putting again more pressure on your shoulders than you can bear (incl. trip to russia, activities & time together etc.)